June 11, 2009 ~ marked the day that it's been a whole month since surgery sometimes it seems a lot longer, and sometimes it seems like it was yesterday. During this past month I have become A LOT less emotionally attached to food. Now I make myself eat or at least try to on some things, but I don't enjoy it as much as I once did. It's funny how at the beginning of the surgery I never thought about how much I rely on food to make me feel better. It's a tough habit to break but I know that I think I have come to terms that I don't live to eat, I now eat to live. I can only take small amounts of food and I'm upping my protien drinks and taking my vitamins.
Yes surgery will help me lose weight quicker than diet and exercise but after the first year it will take work to keep me down to where I wanna be. It's not a quick fix by any means and it was right for me, once I get to near where I want to be I will share my embarrassing weight with you and I'm sure you will see why.. Plus my family medical history once you know it you will soon figure out why I'm afraid to be turning 32 on Monday....
It's funny how much thinner my face has gotten since my surgery, that was the first thing I noticed that I lost a lot of weight in my face and you can tell. I don't really notice it in my body other than some of my clothes is bigger than it once was but not big enough I don't wear it. Hell I hate form fitting clothes any ways so it's going to be hard to give up clothes that will soon no longer fit me.
Well I'm entertaining the possibility of getting a migraine hopefully my tylenol works so I can get one with my day. Dieter and I get to go shopping for our healthy meals that we're going to try this week. My husband is one of my inspiration he has been able to lose almost 40 lbs since we moved here. He loves to cook and loves to make new things. So since my taste buds have changed so much I'm going to give a try to things he enjoys making even if it's sea food I will give it a taste....
To all those that are supporting me thank you it means alot. I love you all...
Tommie =)
Love you Blog Tommie and know it comes from the heart. You are well on your way!!! So proud that you took the step and thanks for sharing all you have. Love, Carolyn
ReplyDeleteTommie, I just got through reading your blog through tears. I cannot image what you are feeling but to have the courage to post your emotions, thoughts, and yernings takes more courage than any one I know. I haven't seen you in a long time and cannot wait until you post pictures of your new self. I remember when Shawnie was in labor with Larry and when he was born. What a great day for you and your family to be able to see him graduate; and you are right your mom and sister are very happy with you and your husband for doing such a great job with all of your kids. It is wonderful to know that you are such a good person and you deserve to be happy and not have reservations about embarrassing your kids because of what you LOOK like. Congratulations on taking the leaping to a new physical you. I cannot wait to read your next blog.
ReplyDeleteLove Stacy